Hello New Year
2006, January 1 - 7:55 p.m.
And the new year is here. God, 2006. Why does the new year always feel so impossible? It's always a little startling, this passage of time. I mean, January 1st comes and goes. Monday, Thursday, 6:00 pm... they all come back. 2005 is gone forever. It's done. Whatever happened happened and there's no going back for more. So what will 2006 have in store? There is a Dominican Republic trip ahead of Ross and me in two weeks. We're seeing Cirque du Soleil in February. Frankly, other than that I haven't a clue. Every time I make predictions about the year I'm wrong. What's happened in 2005? What did I learn? This is my yearly ritual. Let's see... I went to Vancouver twice. I had revelations about my grief while Ross was away I began tai chi lessons I joined the bone marrow donor list Ross and I had our first year anniversary I had appendicitis. Ross moved to Toronto I had a colonoscopy and I was diagnosed wtih IBS Poppie died Jamie started college I entered a writing competition Shaun died I applied for university courses I turned 23 years old. What have I learned...? This is actually pretty difficult, though I know I have learned plenty. 1. I'm more anxious than I had ever realized. Not exactly great but it's better to have improved self-awareness. 2. I need to be more out-going/social. I don't need to change who I am but I need to try harder. 3. I can be more social if I do try. I'm capable of it. 4. Traditions really matter to me. I really need familiar and enjoyable things to look forward to. I don't like sudden changes. 5. Nothing is 100% true. When you're arguing with someone, there is no truth, only perceptions. 6. I can sometimes be too impulsive. I need to work on that. 7. I don't have to be right. There is a difference between standing up for myself with dignity and being stubborn and argumentative. 8. Happy people don't necessarily lead exciting lives. I'm only happy when things are calm. But yet I still crave excitement. I need to add to my life. 9. The satisfaction of a paycheque wears off. I need more. 2005 wasn't a great year for me. There's a pretty big contrast between it and 2004. 2006 could be great. It has potential because nothing has happened yet. I think I'd like to make more friends. I'm not sure how to do that, but I need more people in my life. I'm starting to feel envy when I see groups of girls together having fun. I miss that. 2006: Make more friends, work harder, travel some, get a new job. We'll see.
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