Today I found the place I am going to live. It's in a house 10 minutes from the school. I'd be living with other Sheridan students. The rooms are large and the girls seem friendly and the house is clean and spacious. I also learned I could keep my stuff there after school is out and thus not have to rent a storage unit or rent a $200 van. I knew I'd likely have to pay rent over the summer and $30 a month on top of that as well as $200 to drag my stuff there as well as another 200 to drag it back. Insane, yes? You see, if I rent the van I wont have enough money to pay for rent to the landlord. I would have to dip into my inheritance to get the money and it would be a $100 charge. So using the van method I would be spending $500 total. Plus another $120 for storage over the summer. that's $620. Then there is the $1560 for rent over the summer to hold the place. That makes $2180. Hmmm.. $1560 or $2180. Tough choice. Even if we just moved my stuff over there with the van, I'd still be out $300.

Anyhow, where does this all lead? I told my dad what I wanted to do instead of renting a van and he flipped out. Over e-mail anyway, but I knew he flipped out. There were typos all over the place. Anyhow, in conclusion he sai, "Move yourself." I can't drive. He knows this. He hasn't paid for a cent of my education. I have paid for everything and it seems that he is also getting some money back for my tuition in his tax return. And now he wants me to spend another chunk of money. Why? Apparently he has asked friends for help or something and he doesn't want to back out now. He wrote he'd look like an ass hole. My thought is...would he rather look like an ass hole to his friends or be an ass hole to his daughter? I think that really shows me where I stand in the order of things.

Here is the e-mail I sent him:

I have been thinking... How dare you be mad at ME! You are being beyond selfish! I am saving myself a lot of money this way. If I rent a van I have to take money out of my savings - that's a $100 charge. It would cost $300 for me to do this. Storage? $120 for the summer. A van to cart my stuff to the new place? another $200. $620!!! I could save Six hundred and twenty dollars! If YOU were paying for this and I was saving YOU the money, you'd be all over it. But no. It's only MY money so Heaven forbid I try to be responsible with it. You hypocrite! You have always, ALWAYS told me to save my money. What am I doing now?? There is no way in hell I can get a place without renting over the summer. I have learned this. I have visited 10 places and called twice as many others and all of them say the same thing. so...I'm going to be paying $1560 total over the summer for rent and I can keep my stuff there; I may as well, I'm paying for it already. Why the Hell would I need storage? And why the Hell would I need a van to take my things...across TRAFALGAR ROAD? It's five minutes. We take 2 trips and it's done. NO BLOODY EXPENSIVE VAN. If we do this YOUR way I'll be paying $2180 over the summer instead of $1560. Why in GOd's name is your way better at all?

You say you'll look like an ass hole to your friends? Well for god's sakes, I am MORE IMPORTANT than your friends, at least I should be to you. I have done a lot for you, more than any other girl I know for her father. Yet, I get disregarded by you so fucking often. I'm sick of your shit. Always trying to disown me, or trying to kick me out and then always coming at me for money, like I have an endless supply. Not moving me, my ass. You WILL pick me up, you WILL move me like a decent father should and I will NOT hear any more crap about it. You are not the one paying for it and if I want to save myself a substancial amount of money then I should have that right and not be hassled about it. All I know is, Mom would have liked my plan. She would have been pleased that I could come up with such an economical solution and you know it. Not wanting to look like an ass hole to your friends... but you're more than willing to actually BE an ass hole to me. Really shows where I stand in your order of priorities. Christ.

Yeah, I am just a little pissed.

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